Thursday, June 02, 2005

I feel like a doofus.

I can’t help it. Whenever I post a comment on someone else’s blog I feel like such a moron. Is this some bizarre and previously undetected self-consciousness? As soon as I hit “post” I think, “Oh, that was a stupid thing to say” or “Shit. Did I spell commitment wrong again?” (Hah! I typed this in “word” and it will NOT let me spell it with two t’s.)

When someone posts a comment on my blog I feel great. Even if it is just a simple thing I think, “Wow. Someone actually read this?” This need for validation cracks me up. The whole point of starting a blog was not to write for an audience but to have a visible method of chronicling daily life in a creative way and, well, because it is cheaper than therapy.
So if I don’t post on your blog it isn’t because I’m not reading it. I’m reading it. Believe me. Just understand that the inner geeky me (the scrawny 4th grader with the big glasses who got yelled at for reading too much on the bus and was always picked last for dodge ball) is simply amazed and overwhelmed and just a little afraid…..


LadyBug said...

Oooh, I do the same thing, girl. I'm SO self-conscious about the public 'persona' that I'm putting out there on the internet.

But I hope those of us who regularly come in contact with each other in the blogosphere can be relaxed enough not to sweat the details, and just enjoy each other.

In other words, don't be afraid.

Me said...

Random person leaving a comment on your blog for you... Thanks for making me laugh.