We got the bid back from the contractor.
We are over budget.
WAY over budget.
And I pretty much picked bottom of the line stuff... so there isn't a lot of cutting room. And there will be other costs we aren't yet aware of because we are tying an old house into a new addition and you just never know what you will find.
So we are rethinking our options.
At first I was very sad. So very sad.
But I moved on the wistful.
And then resignation set in.
And alternate planning.
It's just how I work.
So I started planning some other things... like making some changes in the existing house to make it more pleasant and easier to live in.
Like new flooring.
And better storage.
And finish painting.
And on and on.
And I was ok with it.
And Hot was not.
He wants to go forward with it.
So we've discussed cutting options and how to get the budget down.
I think he wants the space but I also think he wants me to have something to make me happy. Which is sweet and I appreciate that he realizes I often put myself last but, honestly, I think tossing about half of our possessions and simplifying our life would make me just as happy.
And now we are at a cross-roads.
And I don't know what we are going to do.
I feel like it will be fine either way but this is a big decision in our lives.... at least right now.
So for now I plan to return all the samples I've been hauling around in my car and just go into a thoughtful mode on the whole thing.
Put it out to the Universe (as my mother-in-law would say) and see what happens.